A little about a lot

Monday, June 26, 2006

Angels with hidden wings

I just read C.S. Lewis' "The Four Loves." It's about four types of love, one of which is Friendship.

Lewis basically says a TRUE friendship is one of the rarest types of love, but also very important because of the part it plays in other types of love.

Anyhow ... I've been so blessed with several friendships that, without them, I'm not sure I'd be who I am.

It becomes painfully obvious how much I take those friendships for granted when I'm confronted by situations where friendship is supposed to be present but isn't.

So, here's a list of the qualities my good friends display that I am so thankful for.

In Eeds' world, (in no particular order) a good friend:

Will tell me when I'm being an idiot.

Will never, ever leave me at a party to find my own way home.

Will know whether it's a "I need a shoulder to cry on" moment or a "don't touch me because I need space to cry" moment.

Will forgive me the moment I ask - if she hadn't already.

Will buy me a bag of York Peppermint Patties after noticing I've had a particularly evil week.

Will bring me Kahlua and Dr. Pepper while I'm taking a shower.

Will tell me what I don't want to hear if it's what I need to hear.

Will take time to come visit.

Will unabashedly tell me she/he loves me.

Sends "thinking of you" notes in the mail.

Congratulates me on my accomplishments.

Is able to accept my compliments on her/his accomplishments.

Sends me a stuffed animal lion named named "Homer," despite how ridiculous the request was.

Is always willing to listen, validate and give advice without expectations.

Is understanding of my short comings (read: that I didn't know Saddam was captured), but doesn't enable me to be less than I could be.

Is confident in his/her friendship with me, and is never jealous of my other friendships.

Respects my wishes.

Is never manipulative.

Understands what I'm saying even when I'm not talking.

Is there for me in my crisis weeks and expects me to be there in her crisis weeks.

Laughs easily.

Loves deeply.

Thanks, Friends.


Monday, June 19, 2006

Florida pics

Just a few of many:

- This was at Siesta Key beach. On Sunday nights everyone with a drum comes and sits in a circle and plays until sundown. People get up and dance like crazy. Lots of fun to watch.

- Me and Leslie at the "Hob Nob" the traditional burger place to eat before a Red's game. The waitresses are paid, apparently, to not pay attention to customers. Still lots of fun and good burgers.


- Mom hunting for sharks' teeth at Venice beach. She wasn't so successful...

- They had these cows at this steakhouse we ate at. Each cow reprsented an amount of meat sold, but I forget exactly what they were for. Fun to sit on though.

Friday, June 16, 2006

Another Kansas girl

Jennifer Knapp is a Christian artist from Chanute, Kansas.

She wrote this song, "Refine Me." I remember listening to it with Jackie when we were in high school - or maybe freshmen in college - I think.

Then, I loved her voice and the music and the melody. But the song came on my Yahoo music player the other day and the words instantly drew tears to my eyes.

Her pleas to be refined are so known to me.

I have the same pleas in those moments that I feel like - somehow - I've sold out. I've started looking to the world for guidance instead of God - and the crud - the to-do lists, the problems that need to be solved, the questions that need to be answered - is just piling up around me. I long for it all to burn - for all of it to be gone except what is truly important. I long to be refined into what I'm meant to be.

Read these lyrics. If you are a praying person, make them your prayer. Ask to be reconciled to Him. Ask Him to burn away everything that is keeping you from being the person you are meant to be. Ask to be refined.

I come into this place
Burning to receive your peace
I come with my own chains
From wars I've fought for my own selfish gain
You're my God and my Father
I've accepted your Son
But my soul feels so empty now
What have I become?

Lord, come with your fire,
Burn my desires; refine me
Lord, my will has deceived me
Please come and free me
Refine me

My heart can't see
When I only look at me
My soul can't hear
When I only think of my own fears
They are gone in a moment
You're forever the same
Why did I look away from You
How can I speak Your name?

Lord, come with Your fire,
burn my desires; refine me
Lord, my will has deceived me
Please come and free me
Come rescue this child
For I long to be reconciled to You

It's all I can do
To give my heart and soul to You
And pray, and pray, oh I will pray

Lord, come with Your fire,
burn my desires; refine me
Lord, my will has deceived me
Please come and free me
Come rescue this child
For I long to be reconciled to You

Refine me, refine me
Refine me, refine me

Monday, June 12, 2006

Florida by the numbers

10: a.m. woke up
12: p.m. made it to the beach
5: p.m. left the beach
7: glorious days of sunshine
7: beaches visited
5: shells collected
1: book completed
2: books started
1: bottle of SPF 15 lotion emptied
1: bottle of aloe vera emptied
67: times I got hit on (why does this not happen in Kansas?)
10: chocolate chip cookies
12: diet cokes
1: steak dinner
6: innings of a single-A Red's game
5: days that I wore my favorite jean shorts
4: episodes of Golden Girls watched
0: times that we used a map
7: u-turns made
1: sunset at the beach
1: hurricane narrowly missed. (whew!)

Glad for the vacation and glad to be back. :)

Thursday, June 01, 2006

It's me again

Forecast for Sarasota, FL

Jun 02 Scattered T-Storms 86°/73° 40 %

Jun 03 Scattered T-Storms 85°/73° 40 %

Jun 04 Scattered T-Storms 85°/72° 40 %

Jun 05 Scattered T-Storms 85°/71° 40 %

Jun 06 Partly Cloudy 88°/71° 20 %

Jun 07 Partly Cloudy 87°/73° 20 %

Jun 08 Scattered T-Storms 87°/73° 60 %

Jun 09 Isolated T-Storms 87°/74° 30 %

Dear God,
It's me again. How are you today? I'm OK. I know you know, but I'm just sayin'...

You know how I've been kinda stressed out lately?

Well, yeah, I guess it has been more like - since the end of February.

Well, anyhow - I wanted to say "thanks" for being my refuge and my strength through all of that. I know I couldn't have done it without You.

Tomorrow I'm going to Florida. Thanks for allowing me to take that trip. Oh, and thanks for creating Florida.

I was just looking at the forecast - you know, trying to plan ... hehehe ... your laugh is contagious. Anyway, I was just wondering if it would be OK to keep the raining between about sunset and 11 a.m. while I'm there.

If not, could you lead me to a lawnchair that comes equipped with an umbrella?

Ok. Thanks God. I love you.