A little about a lot

Thursday, April 27, 2006


KEY: answer that first came to mind/answer I put some thought into.

I AM: a child of God/ditto.
I WANT: flat abs/ to live in the country.
I WISH: on eyelashes/ for things that aren't worth praying for.
I HATE: no one/hate.
I MISS: Nanaw/ ditto.
I FEAR: that I won't see everyone I want to see in Heaven/ditto
I HEAR: Brandon talking/ditto (still talking)
I WONDER: who he's talking to/ where I'll be in a year.
I REGRET: telling Coach Noel the truth/ disrespecting my Dad.
I AM NOT: the best at anything/ OK with people telling me how to dress. Ever.
I DANCE: in the mornings to praise and worship music/ not as well as I used to.
I SING: in the car, at the top of my lungs/ at church, at the top of my lungs.
I CRY: when I'm overwhelmed/ when I'm angry.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: compassionate/ ditto
I MAKE words/ditto WITH MY HANDS.
I WRITE: every single day/my way through life.
I CONFUSE: pretty much everyone/comprise and compose
I NEED: God/ ditto.
I SHOULD: do a better job of seeking Him/call my friends more often.
I START: every day with peanut butter crackers and chocolate milk/ loving people before they love me.
I FINISH: every dessert set in front of me/ e-mails with "Love, eeds"

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Big problem

I can't seem to form sentences today.

This tends to be a problem in my profession.

"Seventy-five percent of the new position's duties ..." NO.

"The new job decription would likely incorporate duties realting mostly to Downtown ..." NO.

"If created, an economic development director position would likely replace the downtown coordinator position and would incorporate additional duties relating to the rest of the city." ummm.. maybe.

"If created, an economic development director position would likely take on the duties of the downtown coordinator position as well as additional duties relating to the whole city." Crap.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

My moments

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the places and moments that take our breath away"

With that in mind ...

Moment that took my breath away:
Looking up and seeing the glory of the swiss Alps. I cried.

Best moment:
Right after John pulled me out of the water at my baptism.

Angriest moment:
I think when the Student Publications board hired Patrice instead of Katie. After all we'd been through that semester, it was just more than I could handle - because it meant that the next semester would also be ruined before it even was started.

Most peaceful moment:
The moment I TRULY let go of something and let Him take care of it - it's peace unlike any other.

Scariest moment:
Anytime I "feel" true evil.

Happiest moment:
When I recognize a prayer has been answered. What the prayer was and how it was answered is top secret, but just know it's the happiest I can remember being in a long time - and I'm a happy person. :)

Saddest moment:
In the hospital - telling Nanaw as she slept that if she needed to go, I'd be OK.

Most confused moment:
When the city engineer tried to explain detention basins and drainage issues to me. Or, any time the Sister-in-Law explains what she does for a living. (Sorry!)

Most surreal moment:
Standing behind Sutphen Mill church - just me and Brother - after Nanaw Hall's funeral. It was like nothing had changed and everything had changed all at once.

Most looked forward to moment:
Meeting Jesus.

Moment best forgotten:
Every moment that was a lie.

How can you really define one specific moment in any of these categories? Ask me tomorrow and they'd probably all change. Then there's all of those "incredibly important" moments that we've forgotten - and of course, those to come. How exciting that life is full of more moments that take my breath away than I can remember.

Monday, April 17, 2006

I am ...

My friend Anna with the beautiful heart recently posted about an exercise she went through at Lithuania Christian College, where she works.

The exercise was originally in a student leadership workshop on cultural bias. Students were asked to determine what identity they associated themselves with: nation, class, gender, family, race, religion, language, etc.

As I thought about this, I was surprised at my answers.

I think there are three identities I associate myself with.

Hi, I'm Eeds, and I'm a Christian.
This one didn't surprise me. My faith plays a big role in my life - so I feel like it defines me.

Hi, I'm Eeds, and I'm a farm kid.
This did surprise me. I talk about it all the time, but I guess I didn't realize how much I INDENTIFIED with it. Being from a rural area definitely sets me apart from most people here in the city. A lot of times I feel like people don't understand me because they can't understand how and where I grew up.

Hi, I'm Eeds, and I'm a journalist.
This also surprised me a little. I guess I didn't realize I identified so much with my profession. Maybe that's because this particular job isn't one I'm too passionate about. But, deep down, that passion for basic journalism is still there, so I guess that's why I identify with it. It's very much a part of who I am.

So what do you all think? Which identity do you most identify with and why?

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Easter Sunday

The Resurrection
1On the first day of the week, very early in the morning, the women took the spices they had prepared and went to the tomb. 2They found the stone rolled away from the tomb, 3but when they entered, they did not find the body of the Lord Jesus. 4While they were wondering about this, suddenly two men in clothes that gleamed like lightning stood beside them. 5In their fright the women bowed down with their faces to the ground, but the men said to them, "Why do you look for the living among the dead? 6He is not here; he has risen! Remember how he told you, while he was still with you in Galilee: 7'The Son of Man must be delivered into the hands of sinful men, be crucified and on the third day be raised again.' " 8Then they remembered his words.
9When they came back from the tomb, they told all these things to the Eleven and to all the others. 10It was Mary Magdalene, Joanna, Mary the mother of James, and the others with them who told this to the apostles. 11But they did not believe the women, because their words seemed to them like nonsense. 12Peter, however, got up and ran to the tomb. Bending over, he saw the strips of linen lying by themselves, and he went away, wondering to himself what had happened.


Jesus Appears to the Disciples
36While they were still talking about this, Jesus himself stood among them and said to them, "Peace be with you."
37They were startled and frightened, thinking they saw a ghost. 38He said to them, "Why are you troubled, and why do doubts rise in your minds? 39Look at my hands and my feet. It is I myself! Touch me and see; a ghost does not have flesh and bones, as you see I have."

40When he had said this, he showed them his hands and feet. 41And while they still did not believe it because of joy and amazement, he asked them, "Do you have anything here to eat?" 42They gave him a piece of broiled fish, 43and he took it and ate it in their presence.

44He said to them, "This is what I told you while I was still with you: Everything must be fulfilled that is written about me in the Law of Moses, the Prophets and the Psalms."

45Then he opened their minds so they could understand the Scriptures. 46He told them, "This is what is written: The Christ will suffer and rise from the dead on the third day, 47and repentance and forgiveness of sins will be preached in his name to all nations, beginning at Jerusalem. 48You are witnesses of these things. 49I am going to send you what my Father has promised; but stay in the city until you have been clothed with power from on high."

The Ascension
50When he had led them out to the vicinity of Bethany, he lifted up his hands and blessed them. 51While he was blessing them, he left them and was taken up into heaven. 52Then they worshiped him and returned to Jerusalem with great joy. 53And they stayed continually at the temple, praising God.

Friday, April 14, 2006

Good Friday


The following passage is from the book of Mark. It is a Christian teaching that describes the Jesus' suffering and His crucifixion. But to truly understand what the passage means, you have to understand what other Christian teachings say as well.

Christians believe that Jesus was God's Son who was sent to teach us how to live and then to die on the cross to pay the price for our sins and reconcile us to a perfect God who cannot ignore sin.

It would be not only foolish but also cowardly to profess Jesus as being fully God and then to blame those who were in the crowd, the Romans soldiers, the Jewish leaders or Pilate himself for his death. Who can kill God against His will?

Jesus died for me. Christians believe that He willingly went to the cross to pay the price for the sins of the world - although He would've done it for just one of us.

Jesus didn't die BECAUSE of anyone. He died FOR us all. It was His choice and the ultimate act of love.

I'm writing this disclaimer because this text can easily lend itself to anti-Semitic views. We all have a responsibilty to squelch misinterpretations that lead to or reinforce ill-feelings toward specific groups. After all, we're all God's creation.

Thanks to Mags for pointing out, in a loving way, my thoughtlessness.

Jesus Before Pilate
1Very early in the morning, the chief priests, with the elders, the teachers of the law and the whole Sanhedrin, reached a decision. They bound Jesus, led him away and handed him over to Pilate.
2"Are you the king of the Jews?" asked Pilate.
"Yes, it is as you say," Jesus replied.

3The chief priests accused him of many things. 4So again Pilate asked him, "Aren't you going to answer? See how many things they are accusing you of."

5But Jesus still made no reply, and Pilate was amazed.

6Now it was the custom at the Feast to release a prisoner whom the people requested. 7A man called Barabbas was in prison with the insurrectionists who had committed murder in the uprising. 8The crowd came up and asked Pilate to do for them what he usually did.

9"Do you want me to release to you the king of the Jews?" asked Pilate, 10knowing it was out of envy that the chief priests had handed Jesus over to him. 11But the chief priests stirred up the crowd to have Pilate release Barabbas instead.

12"What shall I do, then, with the one you call the king of the Jews?" Pilate asked them.

13"Crucify him!" they shouted.

14"Why? What crime has he committed?" asked Pilate.
But they shouted all the louder, "Crucify him!"

15Wanting to satisfy the crowd, Pilate released Barabbas to them. He had Jesus flogged, and handed him over to be crucified.

The Soldiers Mock Jesus
16The soldiers led Jesus away into the palace (that is, the Praetorium) and called together the whole company of soldiers. 17They put a purple robe on him, then twisted together a crown of thorns and set it on him. 18And they began to call out to him, "Hail, king of the Jews!" 19Again and again they struck him on the head with a staff and spit on him. Falling on their knees, they paid homage to him. 20And when they had mocked him, they took off the purple robe and put his own clothes on him. Then they led him out to crucify him.

The Crucifixion
21A certain man from Cyrene, Simon, the father of Alexander and Rufus, was passing by on his way in from the country, and they forced him to carry the cross. 22They brought Jesus to the place called Golgotha (which means The Place of the Skull). 23Then they offered him wine mixed with myrrh, but he did not take it. 24And they crucified him. Dividing up his clothes, they cast lots to see what each would get.
25It was the third hour when they crucified him. 26The written notice of the charge against him read: THE KING OF THE JEWS. 27They crucified two robbers with him, one on his right and one on his left. 29Those who passed by hurled insults at him, shaking their heads and saying, "So! You who are going to destroy the temple and build it in three days, 30come down from the cross and save yourself!"

31In the same way the chief priests and the teachers of the law mocked him among themselves. "He saved others," they said, "but he can't save himself! 32Let this Christ, this King of Israel, come down now from the cross, that we may see and believe." Those crucified with him also heaped insults on him.

The Death of Jesus
33At the sixth hour darkness came over the whole land until the ninth hour. 34And at the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?"—which means, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"
35When some of those standing near heard this, they said, "Listen, he's calling Elijah."

36One man ran, filled a sponge with wine vinegar, put it on a stick, and offered it to Jesus to drink. "Now leave him alone. Let's see if Elijah comes to take him down," he said.

37With a loud cry, Jesus breathed his last.

38The curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. 39And when the centurion, who stood there in front of Jesus, heard his cry and saw how he died, he said, "Surely this man was the Son of God!"

40Some women were watching from a distance. Among them were Mary Magdalene, Mary the mother of James the younger and of Joses, and Salome. 41In Galilee these women had followed him and cared for his needs. Many other women who had come up with him to Jerusalem were also there.

The Burial of Jesus
42It was Preparation Day (that is, the day before the Sabbath). So as evening approached, 43Joseph of Arimathea, a prominent member of the Council, who was himself waiting for the kingdom of God, went boldly to Pilate and asked for Jesus' body. 44Pilate was surprised to hear that he was already dead. Summoning the centurion, he asked him if Jesus had already died. 45When he learned from the centurion that it was so, he gave the body to Joseph. 46So Joseph bought some linen cloth, took down the body, wrapped it in the linen, and placed it in a tomb cut out of rock. Then he rolled a stone against the entrance of the tomb. 47Mary Magdalene and Mary the mother of Joses saw where he was laid.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Stolen post

Stole it from Sarah

Maybe I should....
pray about it.

I love...
Mint chocolate chip ice cream, my brother, summertime rain, lilacs, Dr. Pepper, sleep, Jesus, Sundays, sunshine, journalism.

I don't understand ...
why people think it's cute to mispell words like "Kwik" for "Quick"

I lose...
perspective about who exactly is in control.

People say I'm...
"the nicest person ever," independent, naive, goofy, a hippy, talented.

Love is ...
patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
- 1 Corinthians 13. 4-8

Somewhere, someone...
is too busy to call me back.

I will always...
wish I lived in the country.

Forever is...
nothing compared to eternity.

I never want to ...
be disappointing.

I think the current President is ...
bruised and beaten.

When I woke up this morning...
I smiled. I love my bed.

I get annoyed when ...
I'm too focused on myself.

Kisses are the worst when ...
they are from a relative and halfway on the lips. Gross.

Tomorrow I'm going to...
wake up early, read scripture and pray with a bunch of old men, work hard, read scripture and pray with a bunch of wonderful women. :)

I really want...

I have low tolerance for people who ...
are perpetual victims.

If I had a million dollars ...
I would buy all the Hall land - and some other stuff and give the rest away.

Monday, April 03, 2006

Lively ... yes

Today I semi-randomly visited a baby names site to find out something about a friend's name.

The site allows you to search for a name and it will give you the origin (except it didn't for my name) and traits associated with the name.

After searching for my friend's name and getting the info I needed, I had to search my own name.

It says: "Traits: [Eeds]is described as an attractive woman who is lively, outtgoing, fun-loving and full of life."

Yay! I have good traits. (although I suspect this site wouldn't list any bad traits, such as "[Eeds] is described as an ignorant slut," or something like that. (I'm not, by the way, so if it did say that it would be totally wrong.)

I was feeling good ... until I clicked on the "comments" link for my name.

"1. I always feel this name is fit only for old withered women and introverted, awkward girls who were glasses.

2. Totaly a fat girl name.

3. I know 2 [people named Eeds] both are overweight and bossy."


I love my name. And because that stupid site wouldn't allow me to comment ( I realize that it's lame that I was willing to post a comment about why these mouthbreathers are wrong) without becoming a member, I'm going to use this medium.

I love my name. I was named after my great-grandmother, Eda Mae. She was not fat or mean or ugly or bossy or withered. She was very, very classy and loved to wear red shoes.

It's true that when people see my name, they often assume it's Eddie and look around for a man. I used to hate it (OK still do hate it) but I'm learning to look on the bright side. When someone calls out "Eddie" and I step forward, they always look pleasantly surprised because even on my worst day I look better than the mechanic with his name on his shirt that barely covers his gut that they were expecting.

Not that you should prejudge people based on their name.